I get so angry when I think of tiny pre-born babies being dismembered (ripped apart) by abortion doctors (using the term “doctors” loosely) I can’t stand it!
I envision the violence which enrages me, and then subsequently, grieves me even more . . . tiny body parts being violently sucked apart. It’s a bloody picture.
It’s a righteous anger I feel, so I know it’s ok … … but at times I wonder why the Holy Spirit laid this on my heart so heavily … if I can do nothing about it.
It’s ” selfish wants” that cause people to ‘get rid” of the inconvenience . . . it was for me . . . almost 5 decades ago. My 15 year-old daughter had run away from her mom’s. When I tracked her down … and brought her home to live with me … that’s when I found out she was pregnant. I “wanted” a better life for her.
At that time, I believed the lie – that it was only a “blob of flesh.” She didn’t want an abortion but I insisted – she was pretty and her boyfriend had abandoned her; having a baby at that age was an expressway to poverty.
Maybe it has to do with my guilt. I know that once I was convicted of what I’d done, I grieved for what seems weeks. My wife at the time kept telling that — as we were now Christians and felt remorse, that I was forgiven … now, I find myself holding a graphically offensive sign of an aborted baby’s body parts on busy Seattle streets. I know I’m forgiven but I still grieve for those who’ve not yet come to that …. Plus, I pray that I may 
impact someone who passes by … (the signs come from abortionno.org)
Jodi, my daughter, died a year ago; I’ll never know for sure, why she hated me so after that, but it seems obvious to me; she’d refused to talk to me for well over a decade … here is the photo of her as a little girl’ it shows her innocence . . .
Abortions have eternal consequences — ask almost any ‘almost mom‘ … in my mind, Jodi will always be my little girl, and I loved her so much – still do – – always will. I’m confident that she knew I loved her … she … just couldn’t forgive me.
I’m remarried now and my beautiful wife also got pregnant young; the difference is, she carried Michelle to term and gave her up for adoption … … … a few years back, she found Michelle and it’s so uplifting to watch their relationship grow … to see what could have been …
I wish . . .
to close this, I’m not so sure there’s nothing I can do about it. I believe the Holy Spirit may have given me a plan … if you’re in the Seattle area and willing to help, leave me a reply. I cannot do this alone.
1/27/7. — Praise God! I just read this Great news: https://www.lifesitenews.com/news/arkansas-governor-signs-ban-on-dismembering-unborn-babies-in-abortion
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John, I cannot imagine how that particular ‘guilt feeling’ must be to bear all these years. Do you imagine that was the basis for your daughter’s actions/inactions?
It breaks my heart! Re: your ?, I do … suspect so, but have no way to know for sure.
Originally, we were told that her husband was suspected of killing her – no way to tell that either . . . He’s now released and the only thing we know for certain is that he loved her — at the end – don’t know . . . They were both druggies and alcoholics . . .
John